Hurry up and Wait

I’m so tired of waiting. I just want to get there already. I want it to happen now. Or if I’m feeling particularly ornery, I wanted it to happen yesterday.

Real confession…When I first heard of Human Design I was a little bummed to learn I was a Generator. I thought it sounded a bit boring and lame. And sooo many people were Generators - like 70% of the population is some type of Generator.

Obviously I don’t feel that way anymore. But back then I did. 

You know what I wanted to be at first? A Manifestor.

In my naive understanding of Human Design Manifestors had the power to initiate and just make things happen. Of course there’s more to it than that but back then I didn’t truly understand what it meant to be a Manifestor.

I was raised in America where being proactive and just going for it was the ideal. It was all about making things happen for yourself. Exactly what I felt a Manifestor was all about as far as I knew.

But I’m NOT a Manifestor. I’m a Generator.

I learned that Generators are designed to Wait to Respond.

WHAT?!? 

WAIT?

That went against everything my American upbringing taught me. How was I ever going to get ahead in the world? How was I going to be successful if I just sat there twiddling my thumbs waiting for something to happen?

I felt a little frustrated and annoyed by this revelation at first.

But then I got a reading and began to learn more and more about Human Design.

What I took for granted in the beginning is the aura of Generators.

A Generator’s aura is magnetic. When a Generator’s aura is at its best, it magnetizes opportunities and people. The downside being that the magnet doesn’t deliver them as fast as a text message. So a little bit of patience helps keep a Generator sane.

It reminded me a little bit of what I learned about Law of Attraction. Generators attract or magnetize things to them. I don’t have to initiate anything. I just need to be and wait to see what things come onto my path. See what my aura has magnetized my way.

But what do I do while I’m waiting and letting my aura do its thing? I’ve asked that question many times.

Admittedly this is where I still struggle sometimes. My mind often likes to drift forward in time rather than remain in the present. Honestly, it takes conscious effort on the regular to reel my mind back in and not wander or daydream too far ahead.

For a Generator, while waiting the best thing to do is enjoy life. Enjoy where you are currently. Enjoy the food that you are eating. Enjoy the people you are with. Enjoy the show you are watching or the book you are reading. Enjoy the sun on your face or the gentle sound of rain against the window. And while you are in the state of enjoyment, before you know it, the time for waiting is over and the Universe has brought you something to respond to.

While you are waiting, allow yourself to indulge in whatever you are passionate about in life.

While you are waiting, master and continue to build your skills and gifts.

While you are waiting, experience the present moment to the fullest.

I’m not a master at waiting to respond but I’m a lot further along than I was at the start. And now I have a greater appreciation for my Generator aura. I’ve had the best experiences when I allow myself to trust and believe in the power of my magnetic aura. And most importantly, I’ve come to appreciate how blessed I am to be a Generator.

So to all my fellow Generators out there: waiting isn’t all that bad. Think of it like being at a buffet. The Buffet of Life. But instead of you having to get up and go get your food, the food comes to you.